A Strange Old Notebook

I just came across and old, beaten up notebook from 2008. It was written long before I had studied any Eastern Philosophy and was rooted in Christianity. Here are some of the things I discovered inside.

1. They will try to kill you. (These are the first words written in the notebook?!)
2. Matthew 6: 26-7: Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷ Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?
3. There can be no infinity without uncertainty.
4. If God is infinite, all powerful, then he is uncertainty, because of the myriad of possibility that exists within him/her.
5. There are no laws in God–excepting the law of love. God is love.
6. Yashaya, the (Phoenician Essene) came to overthrow the law; He taught us to banish fear, embrace love, and leap into uncertainty with the joy of the presence of the One.
7. God’s power and wisdom arise from within the “Heart-Space of the One. We should seek to enter or to guide our thoughts so they first enter our hearts in the same manner in reflection of the nature of God.
8. Rules and laws are formulated by the Elite to control others; God has no need for control and in fact God’s being can only exist when there is emptiness for his being to flow into a myriad of forms.
9. Yashaya was killed by the power Elite because his words of love and wisdom threatened their control.
10. Being is higher and of more worthy than knowing.
11. A heart that is aligned with God’s; aligned with his laws of love and mercy, and sees him\herself as a servant to his brothers and sisters, is following the true path to God. Mercy and love more powerfully move the heart of God in your direction than does knowing all about God.
12. Love covers many sins.
13. We must move beyond the cultural constructs that we absorbed as children, so that we can live as God has called us to live; We are to live detached from the world and its constructs and instead manifest ourselves within the very presence and being of the One. We are called by God to enjoy every good gift that he/she has provided to us; with clear vision of it All without catechism or creed.
14. What is closer to God; Being or Knowledge?
15. “The mind or being of God is like a ship that has been cut loose from it’s mooring so that it might have free passage on the seas of mercy and moved by the winds of love.”
16. My soul has travelled to all of these places, Whether in this life or a myriad of lives, I know not. It seems that God in his/her mystery directs existence as he wills without struggle. The just who find God, discover him/her in an instant from the love of their own being. We find God in the present moment, we hold onto God in this present moment, we keep God within in this present moment. Past and future have no meaning in that we only enter into the presence of God in the Eternal Now.
17. God suffers with us!
18. God loves with us.
19. God exalts in our being.
20. God longs for us as much, or more than we long for him. The One is love!
21. I come empty, for I know not.
22. Adonai, I long to sit at your feet and breath the words of life from my master. Mercy overthrows the law. Mercy is the law unenforced. God is mercy. Adonai is mercy.
23. God is not rational, he is ruled by love…that is the meaning of the parable of of the prodigal son.
24. God turns to the prodigal as soon as the prodigal turns toward God. Salvation comes in this moment. The presence of God is in us now…before the turn.
25. Sinner’s Prayers, Baptism, catechisms. the Law, righteous acts from the past, and previous sins…matter not. Our salvation, in the same manner as our existence, happens now. Our plans for the future, our righteous acts, are meaningless. Out acts matter not; all that matters is God in us now.

Heresy, Sweet Heresy!

1. Adonai taught that the Kingdom of God could be found within you. So why are you looking outside of yourself; to your creed or in a temple or basilica.
2. The Human is loath to search for God within. Always seeking out others to show us the Way. What is the reason that natural man resists searching for God within?
3. “Only by entering my presence can you receive my healing. Come to me just as you are, make the turn now. As mine, I experience all that you experience, I bear your burdens, I am with you to the ends of the earth; deep within you, I am leading you to me.”
4. The whole universe has come into existence as the means for us to unite as One. Many say we are not worthy to enter your presence, especially if we don’t have the magic password. They say that because of man’s nature we have no right to hope to enter into you. Some even say that God elects a select few to be his children…nonsense! God is turning toward you moments before you turn to him|her…He\She runs out to meet you before you have reached home. He/She forgives and heals you before you forgive yourself.
5. “The whole universe has been created for you alone, as a place where we can find each other and where we both can chose to unite as One.
6. “I long for your love just as much as you long for mine. Come to me in peace, knowing my mercy.”
7. It is God’s will that we separate ourselves from him/her. It is God’s will that we experience a season apart from each other, because it is only through this means that we can be free to Choose; free to choose God. In the same way that the Human rejoices when their child first walks, so God rejoices within you for all of your accomplishments as you walk in the world.
8. It doesn’t matter what happened in your past, or what you think is coming in the future. God only cares about your relationship with him/her now.
9. Don’t let you past “sins,” or cares about the world, build up a wall of separation between you and God. “You sins are forgiven you, and I care for you more than the sparrows.” If you’re a Christian, allow Adonai to be your eternal priest, so as to provide a gateway through the obstacles that prevent you from entering God’s presence. If you’re an apostate, just enter into yourself and find God within. God in his supreme mercy provides paths for all of his/her children.
10. ” I have given it all to you so you might speak my truth. Those who struggle and contend the most, find me. Those that are passionate in their search, find me. As Meister Eckhardt stated, “God is wholistic and all-encompassing. Share what you have been given with the world. Elijah wrestled with an angel; in fact Elijah wrestled with me. That angel was me and I blessed him. I full revealed myself to him.
11. We glorify revolutionary ideas within ourselves, but hate revolution in others.
12. Yawshu was pronounced a heretic in his day, but the religion that hijacked his ministry hate heretics. So Christians celebrate a heretic, while calling for heretics to be burned on the stake… Mercy!
13. All man-made organizations with their Elites hate an individual path to God. All governmental organization and the Elites who control the power hate individual freedom and responsibility. They all want the group to totally control both the thoughts and the actions of the individual. Isu Chrestos freed us from this prison by his life and allows any who have ears to hear his words within their hearts to find the Godhead within us.
14. The Son, Isu Christos, Krishna, Adonai, Melchizedek, is the spiritual priest of mankind. He/she is the avatar that appears in times of darkness. He/She is the personal attribute of the Godhead that connects with the Human. He|She is the One who releases the Holy Spirit, the connection to God within the center of our being.
15. Its all an illusion that your spirit is passing through. Your real, spiritual self lives in the Eternal Now with and within God, outside of time and space. The tree you saw, the clouds that floated by in a deep blue sky, the lilies you smelled a moment ago no longer exist within your spirit. Your spirit only experienced them in that moment as you visualized them within God.
16. “The earth is shaking beneath your feet. The whole earth will tremble and earthquakes will occur in places where they never have before.”
17. The rays of light, the spiritual strings that connect God and man are darkening, thinning and beginning to break. Few are centered within God and are conscribed by the Spirit of God.
18. All of creation is held together within the One. Outside of time and space for the sake of mankind. The universe, all that we see, feel and experience with our senses and inner being exist for us in the present within which we are experiencing it.
19. I am walking on a quiet road and I feel the wind upon my face. “My son, the wind is you. You exist within me and I am within you, so the wind, as well as all of creation is united with me. Therefore we are one! The wind is you. You are the wind.”
20. “My son, the start of the birth pangs have begun. Darkness is enveloping the earth because my presence within mankind is dimming. Because my love is non-existent within the Human, the balance of creation is shifting. Before the darkness can submerge the light, I will reincarnate within a man for the sake of those that still have the light of my being within themselves. At the end, I will cast my gaze away from God, and my vision of Him/Her within the universe which I created through his perfect will shall end. The elements will melt and all creation will be rolled up like a scroll.”
21. Adonai, how can you allow the destruction of the universe in all its beauty? “My son, have I not given to the Human dominion over the earth. If you want to condemn the ones who have brought about this catastrophe, look into your own evil hearts.”
22. “My son, be concerned with what is inside the vessel, not with the vessel itself. Man is body, soul and spirit. Your spirit is what exists eternally. (In fact, your spirit, your spiritual being is with me even now, away from the world.) It is your individuality within the unity of God. Your soul is our consciousness shared. Your body is merely a place for your spirit to experience the things that I with you have ordained for your edification. The vessel, your body and soul, transport you through time and space, separated from the universality of and timelessness of who I am for the purpose of our becoming. Its all an illusion and I have provided a myriad of paths by which the Human can apprehend me.”
23. “My son, have you not seen how man seeks always to erect a barrier between the induvial and God? This is the foundation of religion; create a barrier to God, (Lets chose sin), that only the religion can solve. Even now, don’t you have eyes to see how this trick works. My, beloved, it is a trick of man, not of me. The religious elite, the priest class, usually in alliance with secular earthly power, control the masses by being the gate-keepers between man and God. They love to appear in costly robes with lofty visions and beautiful words, before the congregants, and with a straight face of spiritual hubris declare that “You are not worthy of a relationship with God unless you follow the path and say the words prescribed by us… an we’ll be happy to take your money on the way out the door. Oh how man swells with pride at having been chosen, and how they look with recrimination on any who are not born into their tribe or follow their way. This is human intellectual manipulation and hatred straight out of the pit of hell! Have you not understood, how much God loves you?! Isu Chrestos was crucified because he said that “God and I are One,” and that “the Kingdom of God is within You.”

Marcion’s greatest crime was that he called for a religion apart from YHWH and the Jews. That is why he put together the first written gospel apart from the Torah. He felt Christianity should have its own scriptures. “Marcion believed that Jesus had no direct connection to the Judean creator god of the Hebrew Bible. He called this deity “the Stranger God” or “the Alien God. Marcion believed that Jesus was not Jewish, but a spiritual entity sent by the Monad. Marcion was the first Christian to insist on a distinct canon of scripture…One such creative liberty is the name for the Marcionite Savior, “Isu Chrestos” – “Isu” derived on the designation of Syrian Marcionites, the spelling for “Chrestos” (= the Good one) derived from an ancient inscription to a Marcionite synagogue. The inscription, which is dated, says “The meeting-house of the Marcionists, in the village of Lebaba [near Damascus], of the Lord and Saviour IS Good – Erected by the forethought of Paul a presbyter, in the year 630″ of the Seleucid era (318 CE). The arch is believed to be the oldest church of any kind discovered to date.”