This idea, this thought bubbling up like a spring from within myself, keeps troubling my mind and soul. It’s totally radical and requires that you jump. It requires you to shatter your own comfortable paradigm of understanding. It requires you to acknowledge and accept that you are the creator of your own world, and your own being. Troubling, very frightening is the thought that we control our own Way, that we have the freedom to create the Tao that we experience. Troubling that the whole Universe; all created things, are not out there, somewhere, but are instead fully formed within ourselves. The glorious and sobering reality that we create our own being.
“Why do you hide? Why do you hide? Why do you hide!“
When your eyes and mind are opened to this possibility, its liberating and frightening, the taking back of control of gnosis, the light within yourself. Casting down the cowardly way of ascribing our plight to others or to “god.” Stating boldly that, we control our own plight; we control our own being and we control our own experience of the world. And not just with our actions within the world, but also ascribing and creating all that the world is to us.
“Why do you hide? Why do you hide? Why do you hide!“
We are in a certain sense smothered by our incarnation; in this iteration of “me.” In the task of resolving our being and spreading the Way; trying to find our true selves, to find our connection to the One.
“Why do you hide? Why do you hide? Why do you hide!“
Most humans, believe that the Way appears before them totally randomly; But what if this is not so. And why should it be so? What are the laws or rules that require it to be so? Since our understanding of the bond of consciousness are so weak, and the arguments are so faulty, how can we know how perception is formed, since we are all ignorant of understanding of our own being? Yet, human beings cast the net of religion, god, priesthood, predestination, as lamps of truth, without meaningful proofs.
“Why do you hide? Why do you hide? Why do you hide!“
What if we are actively involved in our own being and destination but we remain blind to the power that we hold at this very moment; a thing that neither mediation or prayers can uncover. Only through faith and a heartfelt belief that you really do control your being, that your whole Universe emanates from you, that nothing is out there, but all things that you experience arise from within you. That “the Kingdom of God is within you!”
“Why do you hide? Why do you hide? Why do you hide!“
Do you have the courage to step out and as a Child of the Living God, with the Crown of Light and Wisdom flowing from the One, and direct the Tao as it appears and flows from your being? Do you have the courage to do this in your own power and your own will?
“Why do you hide? Why do you hide? Why do you hide!“
While we control the Tao we travel on, the Tao is still travels through and is built from the power and presence and substance of the One, the black pool of possibility that is perfectly still, allowing us to create our being out of his|her being. And if we allow our Mother to inhabit us, thought the presence of the Spirit of God, the spirit of our Mother, we are double blessed. We our double blessed because we have the Godhead with us always, “unto the ends of the earth,” helping to guide us as we create the Tao of our lives and being. We have a lover of our soul on board, ministering to us and giving us boldness and wisdom…or so it it said.
“Why do you hide? Why do you hide? Why do you hide!“
YET THE IDEA IS SO FRIGHTENING! “Fear Not,” the avatar of God says, over and over again. Do not be afraid of your own liberation from the heavy materialism that clouds your heart and mind. Yes, at times you will feel that a hot madness has come upon you, daring to put yourself in charge of your own being. “I know, I’m cast about by forces outside of myself!” Random intercessions force themselves into my life, don’t they? We love to be held fast in the material possession of the world. It frees us of being responsible for ourselves; for being responsible for our own liberation. We can cast our deficits, pain and suffering on the “other,” rather than on ourselves. And we find this abrogation of our own self-rule very comforting, because it absolves us of responsibility.
“Why do you hide? Why do you hide? Why do you hide!“
“A Buddha is one who has attained Bodhi; and by Bodhi is meant wisdom, an ideal state of intellectual and ethical perfection.” As you can see, this statement is more of a question than an answer. So what is that wisdom and intellectual perfection then? What if we can all become Buddha, fully endowed with Bodhi, simply by tenaciously holding onto the understanding that it is us alone who is creating the Tao that we choose to travel on? We are liberated when our hearts and minds are empowered to understand how the creative force of our being is held within ourselves and always has been. We all can become enlightened when we finally accept our own power and stop reneging on its ability to form our lives and being. When we are fully engaged in spreading the Way in front of us as we pass along it. And because God loves us beyond what we can conceive, he will send herself to you in the form of the Spirit, to work within you, granting peace, and entwined within you as One, as we liberate ourselves from our own passivity and become active creators of our own being. Let it be so!
But Why do you hide from me, the One that loves you?
You have encased my soul in the miasma of materialism. You have imprisoned me here! Cast me out to find my own way, apart from you. How I have longed to experience your presence. How I have longed to rest in your love and light. How I have longed to know you and trace the contours of your being with my mind and soul. To simply be with you. Yet here I am; I sojourn alone.
Since you have cast me adrift in this half-assed contraption of a bodily form, with a giant void of questioning and unknowing, travelling in a hostile yet incredibly beautiful world… I will go alone, since this is what you appear to want for me. You want me to stumble in the darkness apart from you! So I will! And I will boldly create my own Way even though in the deepest recesses of my heart I have longed for you to be with me.
“Why do you hide? Why do you hide? Why do you hide!“
I will not feign knowledge of you, as a salve to my distress. I will not pretend to know you. Your Holy Spirit, its here, I think, but where is the heat, light and glory. I will not lie; I will not pretend that it is otherwise. You have willfully abandoned me to my fate and set your being as stone.
“Why do you hide? Why do you hide? Why do you hide!“
I will not pretend. I will no pursue a game in my head of your connectedness or ascribe to you the failed doctrines of pitiful intellect and a blind hopefulness. Calling you by names you never have answered to or to religions that never healed and never loved, or believe that you have and will continue to intervene within creation wielding the attributes of hatred, condemnation and murder. Are you not the God of Love and Light? Will you not reach out with your being to uplift the pitiful ones you have created?
“Why do you hide? Why do you hide? Why do you hide!“
So I will begin to walk, in faith of my own being and in the strength of my own spirit. I will create my own Way, the Way that my heart longed to share with you! I will forge it with my own being, and strengthen it with my own will, and wisdom. I will no longer beg or grovel for what any parent would gladly give. If you will not appear; If you will not arise to defend me, If you will not bow down to comfort me as I would gladly do for you or for the destitute in the world who bear your face; Then I will resolve within myself to be and become that which I will. I will comfort myself in the knowledge that I am courageously seeking love, truth and peace. Do not cast me from your presence, but if your cause is to abandon me; if your cause is to hide from me, then I am forced to go my own way. I am forced to forge my own individual being apart from you. I am forced to travel a path I never wanted to tread with the absence of You. Father, why do you forsake me to the world?
“Why do you hide? Why do you hide? Why do you hide from one who loves you?“
I am a man of truth and cannot lie: I cannot deceive, even my self. I cannot create an illusion to salve my soul. I will no construct a myth to explain your absence. You have no need to prove yourself to me. You are a phantom to me, an invisible illusion, created by my longing, created by my need. Oh how I need you and how I long for you…but have you need of me? Why do you hide from the ones who love you?
THE RESPONSE…
The anointed Ones come, carrying mercy with them and pour the balm of healing and grace to those that seek the Way. Out of their being flows forgiveness, and mercy to those who deserve it least, but who need it most and are willing to acknowledge their own needs. The intercessors come into the world, to change the direction or the flow of consciousness; they have the role of bringing mankind back into alignment with the One, in times of great darkness, like we are experiencing now. In essence they are the shepherds of humanity. I accept the covering of sin offered by Christ, my first love, and the wisdom of Krishna and free awakening of Amidah Buddha. I would abandon Jesus the Christ (the anointed One), if not for the prophetic word which is miraculously manifesting itself in our world at this very moment. Everywhere you turn your eyes, they are manifesting, and it is frightening and awesome, in its precision. Only in this very precise moment could there be a “mark of the beast.” In this end of the age, the end of the age that comes over and over again, burying the past works of intellect and power under walls of water, a fractured crust and an the Leviathan of encasing mud I will still confess that Jesus is Lord.
“Why do you hide? Why do you hide? Why do you hide from one who loves you?“