Father, the sickness is spreading,
like a galloping horse sprung from a barn,
Nothing can stop it,
Once set loose,
It just keeps running,
A madness pursuing,
ignoring the pale of death in its path.
until it is stopped exhausted.
I want to give it all away,
I have no need of any,
it just wearies me,
and wears my soul away,
until I watch it melt away.
All those things I wanted,
All those things I desired,
All those goals
And affirmations,
All those mudras,
Chasing spiritual streams,
while held within me,
I sought the void.
I want Nothing!
And that brings everything,
crashing down upon me,
a flowing love,
never ending,
simply flowing,
on forever,
held within you.
This my beloved One,
is all that my heart desires.
Free me from it all,
take away all my burdens,
as I come,
and rest within you.
I have been blessed,
and my heart restored,
by the certain knowing,
of the freedom from your hand,
the constant fire,
burning all desire,
transmuting it,
transforming it into flame
as I aspire to a place,
beyond the illusion of being,
where in clarity, I can
apprehend you.
All this life,
all this aspiring,
this heartfelt greed,
this foolish need,
leading to more suffering.
If I could just let it fall
from my straining grasp,
I would instead,
in blessed light and love,
be grasped by you.
And you my love.
the One who leads me
into paths unbounded.
To be free,
finally free,
held within blessing and light,
held within only You.
Only you,
as I ascend and explore,
the texture of your being.
How did I become like this,
a simpleton and a fool,
longing for only mystic desire
pursuing any and every,
in my path to you.
I am longing,
I am waiting,
my heart painful with desire,
to only trace,
the outlines,
of perfected being,
shattered,
for the sake of me.
How can I express my love,
to you, who are so beyond.
Before I breath in,
that last labored breath,
show me the curtains coming down,
the veils torn,
as love withdraws to You,
carrying me,
into Your being.