So I have been reading (I know, I know, I need to cast down knowledge and take up wisdom). I like my monkey friend! Sometimes! It has caused me a troubled mind, and anxious heart, because of the different views of the sages regarding the One.
In my heart, the God I love and conspire with is One. Truly everything and All. God gazing upon his created order through my eyes and feeling the current of the Human emotion within the world through me; and more astoundingly the One is everything I am passing through.
If God is not indwelling, then I am not. Cast me into oblivion if this is not so!
In one section of “Seven Steps to Awakening,” the particular “rishi” who spoke the phrases of the section, states over and over again that this is all untrue. He states with authority and assuredness that God has no part in this reality! He says that essentially all of our reality is an illusion that flows from the ego. God stands apart and watches, away from the action.
Does this view not make me an agnostic? If I am unable to know, experience and luxuriate within God; then I will stand apart, slay my own ego, and concentrate on the spiritual part of myself that I control. Is this not the path of my becoming a god apart from the One?
My whole point in becoming; the whole point of awareness, is to capture the beloved! When I turn my being around to gaze upon the light rather than the shadows, I am seeing the One as a living part of me.
It seems as if the Rishi was trying to smash something within the Human in order to snatch our attention. They are seeking to smash the beautiful Pearl of Great Price in order to still the mind. Words said to direct our attention in a certain way. Which is all fine, who the hell am I to speak; yet I will never give up the union of grace that exists as a Human who is fully a part and conscribed by the One.
Anything less is dung, so just cast me into oblivion! I want it All. I want the whole package of the transcendent One (God) within me. I want to be fully indwelled and utterly conscribed by the One. As a man thinketh and as he|she implores the beloved, so we shall become! The unmovable God, moves by faith alone.
God is my personal friend. We have consorted in the mud together, because he is both the mud and the water that cleanses; he has raised me up because I am his|her beloved child. If I strip his presence from the created order, what of worth will be left? Everything I see in the world is the love and light of God.
My soul just stares with mouth agape, at the wonder and beauty of my God’s being!
The One descended and became the All of creation in order to bring forth children. In order to cast his being within the Human so we are both utterly detached yet fully conscribed as we return to the One.
I am a Human, and I am a fractal portion of the One. If there is no division, then God is All. It cannot be otherwise except by a mighty twisting of reality.
The One, my Father, my Mother loves me; and there can be no separation within love. So if God is truly love, than we are One.
Do I truly have to cast God from the the reality that arises from my being? I have already escaped from the God upon a throne myth, and I will not return there in order to free my soul, by following a path that crucifies my God. I will not abandoned the path that calls me to see God’s light and love within myself in order to quiet the monkey brain. But the intellect is not the enemy because out of it comes intuition and insight to guide the Human on the Way. Rather, we a called to domesticate the monkey brain, so it isn’t shitting all over the temple of our heart; so that the monkey becomes a beloved pet and friend that helps uphold, strengthen and open our eyes; to calm our souls and to strengthen our being as we experience all the divergent elements within us and within the world.
Wake Up! Your are on a Quest! You are called to pull the sword from the stone and thereby become truly One.
The Human mind is a gift form our beloved Father, and I do not hate it or want to be separated from it. Instead I want what all true sages have sought, the merging of heart and mind into One, so that the wisdom and light of God illuminates our being.
The Intellect is a gift from a loving God. It was given to use so we can transcend the world and find the Way. Our minds are the swords that help the Human to complete the Quest and to rise victorious within the One. But, but we must domesticate the mind so it is devoted to the will of the heart; so it becomes a servant to the Holy Spirit of God within us. And when this transpires, we also become servants, to the world and to the Humans we are led to interact with and to heal.
I cannot say that the One does not exist as the foundational principle of all existence, because my intuition tells me this is a lie. The Holy Spirit speaks to my heart in this matter and says the the Rishis are wrong.
The One, my God, My Father, my other is a living presence within me, within the world and is my reality. All things that I am are the Beloved One of my heart. If this is not so, then cast me into oblivion and non-existence. Nothing I am has any value without the connection and the union with God.
This is the mystery of the wedding feast; through the indwelling of the Holy Spirit we become fully, and intimately as One with our God.
Maybe I need to flee the esoteric and return to the exoteric religion of safety and certainty? If God does not exist in me, then why would I seek the One within myself? Why would I seek myself, for if I am not One, there is no reason for my existence.
Is not my beloved the One, who gives me little gifts of joy within the creation? And lets talk a minute about that “Creation!” It is beautiful! It is a gorgeous, glimmering pearl, that the One has graciously given to the Human, so they can become like Him|Her within their being. The world is not the enemy, the corruption of the world is the enemy. The Human chained by desire, the demons and the Luke-warm are the enemy of this world.
Maybe the “philosophy” of the Neo-Platonists has come the closest to apprehending the knowledge of the One. This would make sense, since their ideas were condemned and their texts destroyed because they were so spiritually compelling.
I can’t go here… The dream is filled with the One. I see his presence everywhere as “reality” as the created order passes before me. I know the love of God through the created world. If it is all worthless and an illusion, then how can I be grateful. If God has created a trap of deceit to fool the the Human, how can I worship him|her.
What happens to the gratitude I feel in my heart if I destroy and hate my world? I am so thankful for everything that my God has given to me personally. I am, an infinitesimally small part of the All, yet the One, my Mother and Father care for me?
If this is not so, cast me into oblivion!
Yet, I know that the One is crystalline, silent and still, in the Akasha of creation, so in a sense the One does stand apart. The Father is still. The Word or Spirit and the Mother are both active within the All and within the Human. And both are fully God. And out of the One descends those who are called to nurture the family of God, as they become and as they grow toward the light; both Human, Angelic and Demonic.
The One is both active and at rest!
So I have to reject much in the “Seven Steps of Awakening” and “Eternal Bliss”! Yes I crave the full presence of the One within me as a tread upon the earth; eternal bliss would also be nice, and I feel it most when I gaze upon the beautiful gift, the created order that He|She has provided to me, out of love, so that I may become His|Her child. I feel bliss when I encounter the presence of my Mother, as the Holy Spirit within my heart. When she touches me and directs my Way.
These ideas do have merit and deserve attention, because a monkey brain that won’t abide discipline and ordering fills the Human with chaos. And we must strive to still the monkey brain, so that our souls mirror the nature of the One. So that we mirror the silent black sun of the One that flows into the existence of all things. God does call us to rest so that we have the capacity to apprehend the divine within us.
I am not a hero, or courageous, yet I have no fear in stating, that if these words are not so, cast me into the darkness of separation from you, my beloved and ever abiding Father.