So in my last post I was on a denial jag, then my merciful God showed me this and the point came more clearly into focus.
Everything must go before God will fill you. Repentance is self-emptying and if it is not than it is not repentance.
Mathew 23: Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For ye make clean the outside of the cup and of the platter, but within they are full of extortion and excess.”
As Christians, we love to rest within grace, but is this really what the Christ emphasized in his ministry. No he did not, it is the church, the religion that emphasizes grace because it is what gives religion its power; the ability to provide a dispensation from sin, with no requirement on your part except believing in the religion. It’s the hook I have been railing against because it leads us away from God, rather than toward God. The hook leads us to religions and the sacraments of the priest class, not a true awakening and change within ourselves.
I was lead to the The Apocryphon of James, Translated by Francis E. Williams. Everything that flooded out of me about denial is affirmed by this scripture.
“James writes to […]: Peace be with you from Peace, love from Love, grace from Grace, faith from Faith, life from Holy Life!”
“Since you asked that I send you a secret book which was revealed to me and Peter by the Lord, I could not turn you away or gainsay (?) you; but I have written it in the Hebrew alphabet and sent it to you, and you alone. But since you are a minister of the salvation of the saints, endeavor earnestly and take care not to rehearse this text to many – this that the Savior did not wish to tell to all of us, his twelve disciples. But blessed will they be who will be saved through the faith of this discourse.”
“I also sent you, ten months ago, another secret book which the Savior had revealed to me. Under the circumstances, however, regard that one as revealed to me, James; but this one … [untranslatable fragments]“
“… the twelve disciples were all sitting together and recalling what the Savior had said to each one of them, whether in secret or openly, and putting it in books – But I was writing that which was in my book – lo, the Savior appeared, after departing from us while we gazed after him. And five hundred and fifty days since he had risen from the dead, we said to him, “Have you departed and removed yourself from us?” But Jesus said, “No, but I shall go to the place from whence I came. If you wish to come with me, come!”
“They all answered and said, “If you bid us, we come.”
He said, “Verily I say unto you, no one will ever enter the kingdom of heaven at my bidding, but (only) because you yourselves are full. Leave James and Peter to me, that I may fill them.” And having called these two, he drew them aside and bade the rest occupy themselves with that which they were about.“
So as Christians, as Children of God, we are instructed by Christ to self empty so we might be filled by something that we the Human must carry within ourselves. And without this “filling,” even the words of Jesus cannot bid us into the Kingdom of God. Christ makes the astounding statement that “no on will ever enter the kingdom of heaven by my bidding, but (only) because you yourselves are full.”
Woah, right there, this text is telling me that it is something about my soul that will allow me to enter the kingdom, not a gift of salvation? We are saved by the power and presence within us. What Jesus is saying here, is that it is not his death on the cross that saves but rather it is the indwelling of the Holy Spirit that saves us. And only if we are filled with the “Spirit” can we enter the Kingdom.
I bet you weren’t taught that in your church.
The Apocryphon of James states further that, “The Savior said, ‘you have received mercy …
(7 lines missing) Do you not, then, desire to be filled? And your heart is drunken; do you not, then, desire to be sober? Therefore, be ashamed! Henceforth, waking or sleeping, remember that you have seen the Son of Man, and spoken with him in person, and listened to him in person. Woe to those who have seen the Son of Man; blessed will they be who have not seen the man, and they who have not consorted with him, and they who have not spoken with him, and they who have not listened to anything from him; yours is life! Know, then, that he healed you when you were ill, that you might reign. Woe to those who have found relief from their illness, for they will relapse into illness. Blessed are they who have not been ill, and have known relief before falling ill; yours is the kingdom of God. Therefore, I say to you, ‘Become full, and leave no space within you empty, for he who is coming can mock you.”
“Then Peter replied, “Lo, three times you have told us, ‘Become full’; but we are full.”
The Savior answered and said, “For this cause I have said to you, ‘Become full,’ that you may not be in want. They who are in want, however, will not be saved. For it is good to be full, and bad to be in want. Hence, just as it is good that you be in want and, conversely, bad that you be full, so he who is full is in want, and he who is in want does not become full as he who is in want becomes full, and he who has been filled, in turn attains due perfection. Therefore, you must be in want while it is possible to fill you, and be full while it is possible for you to be in want, so that you may be able to fill yourselves the more. Hence, become full of the Spirit, but be in want of reason, for reason <belongs to> the soul; in turn, it is (of the nature of) soul.”
Can you do it?
Most Can’t!
Can you follow the words of Christ; Can you perceive the words of the mystics of the East, and can you live led by the Spirit of God? Can you overthrow reason, can you smash the spinning monkey brain, and live within the love and intuition of your Mother, the very Holy Spirit of God? Can you be still enough, and be filled unceasingly with the springs within you, in order to tread the path to the Kingdom of God?
John 4: 13 Jesus said to her, “Every one who drinks of this water will thirst again, 14 but whoever drinks of the water that I shall give him will never thirst; the water that I shall give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”
So what the Master is telling James and Peter here is that he wants to give them the “spring of water welling up to eternal life. It isn’t the church and the sacraments that let us stroll into the Kingdom, no. it is the Holy Spirit, the fountain of the power of our Mother, who came before the son, whose presence within our heart is given as a gift from the Christ so that our mind can be over powered by our heart and the love and presence of God can rule our being. In this state, held within the presence of the Holy Spirt, we are heirs to the Kingdom of God.
Don’t you see it?
“…Verily, I say unto you, none of those who fear death will be saved; for the kingdom belongs to those who put themselves to death. Become better than I; make yourselves like the son of the Holy Spirit!”
…“Hasten to be saved without being urged! Instead, be eager of your own accord, and, if possible, arrive even before me; for thus the Father will love you.”
Its so hard for the Human to understand a being that exists for the well-being of others and strives with all that they are to uplift others. Such is the Christ, the avatar of the living God. All of his being is coiled and focused on providing you the path, through the power of the Spirit, to enter the Kingdom under your own means as a gift and in order that the Father might be glorified by your redemption into his presence.
“Come to hate hypocrisy and the evil thought; for it is the thought that gives birth to hypocrisy; but hypocrisy is far from truth.”
“…Rejoice, and be glad, as sons of God. Keep his will, that you may be saved; accept reproof from me and save yourselves. I intercede on your behalf with the Father, and he will forgive you much…Verily, I say unto you, woe to those for whose sakes I was sent down to this place; blessed will they be who ascend to the Father! Once more I reprove you, you who are; become like those who are not, that you may be with those who are not.”
“Do not make the kingdom of heaven a desert within you. Do not be proud because of the light that illumines, but be to yourselves as I myself am to you. For your sakes I have placed myself under the curse, that you may be saved…”
“…But the Lord answered and said to us, “I have given you faith many times; moreover, I have revealed myself to you, James, and you (all) have not known me. Now again, I see you rejoicing many times; and when you are elated at the promise of life, are you yet sad, and do you grieve, when you are instructed in the kingdom? But you, through faith and knowledge, have received life. Therefore, disdain the rejection when you hear it, but when you hear the promise, rejoice the more. Verily, I say unto you, he who will receive life and believe in the kingdom will never leave it, not even if the Father wishes to banish him.”
“…These are the things that I shall tell you so far; now, however, I shall ascend to the place from whence I came. But you, when I was eager to go, have cast me out, and instead of accompanying me, you have pursued me. But pay heed to the glory that awaits me, and, having opened your heart, listen to the hymns that await me up in the heavens; for today I must take (my place at) the right hand of the Father. But I have said (my) last word to you, and I shall depart from you, for a chariot of spirit has borne me aloft, and from this moment on, I shall strip myself, that I may clothe myself. But give heed; blessed are they who have proclaimed the Son before his descent, that when I have come, I might ascend (again). Thrice blessed are they who were proclaimed by the Son before they came to be, that you might have a portion among them.”
Proclaim my name Lord, in the presence of your Father, by the power of the Spirit, Amen.
http://www.gnosis.org/naghamm/jam.html